What a scary word. It stands out in my mind as one of the hardest things for me to get past mentally. I already have debt in my life. While my car is (FINALLY) paid off, I have school debt and credit card debt. It feels like it will never end because as soon as some of this debt begins to disappear, I will be picking up a mortgage; life always seems to get in the way of paying things off.
Every American seems to have problems similar to this. However, I am trying so hard to not live outside of my means. I am not trying to impress people. My debt is simply a whirlwind of things that I actually need, not clothes and accessories and material possessions, but a car that runs, gas to get to work, and food to eat. How did I get so far behind? Why can I not just make a payment plan and not stress about it? I am not nearly as in debt as others around me, and I still find myself believing I am worse off.
Does anyone else struggle with fear that God does not have control over their finances? This has always been a problem for me. I can give God control over almost all areas of my life, but I need to release my grip on this one. Prayers would be helpful, although I know it is in my hands. I know I can take control of this situation. I have the money, I just need to accept the vast amount of time things take. It will not happen overnight and it will be a difficult process of sacrificing other things to pay for what I need.
Learning and growing and changing and maturing. It is a continuous process. Some days I feel like I have it all figured out, and sometimes I am overwhelmed from the moment I wake up in the morning. This life lesson is not an open and shut case. It will always be something I am rediscovering.